Don't you just love going to see the dentist with what you think is legitimate tooth pain only to be told you're either
a) suffering from a new level of your trigeminal neuralgia
b) suffering sinus congestion
c) stressed and anxious as fuck (leading to muscle strain from clenching, bruxism, and tension headaches)
And from the way he was talking to me, I know he was pretty sure it's option c. So there we have it. The second medical professional this month to tell me I'm stressful and anxious. My parents have heard about this too and now they're going to be wallowing in guilt and self-blame. I feel dirty and exposed, like my most detailed diary was just read out to everyone. It's one thing knowing you're on a downward spiral of anxiety, but it's something else entirely having everyone knowing about it. Especially the people you try to care for and support.
This is going to make me look weaker and less capable in their eyes. And it can't have happened at a worse time. I still worry about Dad up and leaving us, especially now that a chasm has opened up between me and Mum since her last episode. I need to keep it together so that Dad doesn't feel as trapped and desperate to run away, how can I do that if he's looking at me like I'm the source of all concern and guilt?
This fucking sucks. Maybe I should give in and see if I can get some medication to cope with all of this.
That took a long time to confirm! I was starting to think the series was over for sure.
Honestly, I have no idea where they can go from here. I have a feeling it will be no place I would like. Season two disappointed me in a lot of ways, most particularly: Finn being kept a 2D image of perfection, the treatment of Liam and his illness (he wasn't a sweetheart but the narrative neglect of him and the bias of Rae's POV meant that he got a serious level of undeserved abuse from viewers), giant holes and out-of-character moments to force quick fixes.
I also wonder where the plot can go from the end of the last season. MMFD has the potential to be great if it only took off its blinders and widened its view some more. I will definitely watch a new season but I'm also prepared to get back on my soapbox about mental illness, being overweight, and hole-riddled writing if I have to!